Writing about the Star Cross’d Lovers a couple of posts ago reminded me of what I was doing when I, like Meghan, was experiencing my Neptune square Neptune and Uranus opposite Uranus and Pluto square Pluto.
Like Meghan, but doing my own version, I was going to save the world. This reaching out to the world with compassionate intent is a hallmark of Neptune and the square configuration pushes us to achieve it as much as we can. We become very identified with our purpose at this time. Everyone experiences these ‘returns’. The annual one is our birthday.
We do not always have those 3 transits all at once, but I did. Meghan was having her Pluto square before the Neptune square kicked in (with extra power from today). Pluto began at the beginning of 2018 and will continue till the end of this year, making a short return in October 2022. Pluto has been moving over her descendant and reflecting her main relationship(s). Pluto in her 4th house reflects her father’s influence and the interaction with him, so it is no wonder that there are issues playing out there at the same time as the new relationship with Harry. Pluto shows its presence by making the huge change in our life in the house of transit (7th )which will also impact the natal house (4th ).
The Uranus opposition comes a little later for Meghan, at the end of June 2023 and stays for more than a year because of the opposition with Chiron which brings it into view a year early. Uranus wants us to have our own way, therefore it suggests there might be those who resist us. Individuality, apart from that which our parents give us physically, has to be earned.
From the beginning of May this year Chiron will be indicating action on Meghan’s mid-heaven – some testing public attention – and also squaring her sun in Leo in the first house which is her pressing need for personal attention. It is the sign of the actor in the house of the self. Donald Trump has Leo in the first house and Mars in Leo on the Ascendant. Both of them are strong actor types, while different in other ways. Her natal Chiron is in the house known for reaching out to the collective, so during this transit which is imminent she must resist over-identifying with her role as saviour of the world in order to be taken seriously.
But it is not my role to analyse Meghan’s birth chart. I was just about to take a stroll down Memory lane to see the same energies at work in me 25 years ago. Back then I wanted to tell the world how it was not only possible but a wonderful thing to experience love with someone outside of society’s expectations as I had with Mary. In 1995 we were refused a legal civil partnership. This concerned me as I looked to the future and various end of life in hospital scenarios. I also felt that if I could publish some sort of statement about who and what I had become it would exonerate me from being so different in the eyes of my peers and family, or I would feel that it had. But it didn’t. It was another 20 years or so before my message filtered through along with those of many ‘different’ others and with the help of the internet.
Yesterday I copied from Mind the Gap
What the vicar said about miracles, faith, belief and religious truth. Dialogue with Mary who is unperturbed and seems to have grace without the need to believe. The author must wait for grace before she can believe.
Today here is
Two avatars: Maitreya – the miracle of another Christ; Mother Meera – divine energy. God and the creative process are one. How to go with the flow and shed self-consciousness; the vanishing of energy and convictions; the need and search for new energy and belief. What Buddhism says. Relativity; local clergyman denies God. God and the creative process are one.
Note: Benjamin Crème died in 2016 before the appearance of Maitreya but there is still plenty of material on the subject. Mother Meera is still going strong. The first half of this chapter is information, the second half biographical fiction. The mixing of genres was not popular for marketing in 1996, so the writing was eventually self-published for personal reasons, so that I could move on, first to the study of astrology which after 4 years led to some collaboration with, Mary, the reluctant channel.
The Concise Oxford Dictionary definition of an avatar is: “n. (Hind. Myth.) descent of deity to earth in incarnate form; incarnation; manifestation, display; phase” – Christ was a sort of avatar then. Still with the idea of miracles, I researched the possibility of more recent miracles, and in a short while I discovered two contemporary avatars: one now living in London, the other in Germany.
In July 1977, Maitreya, “The Master” had emerged from his centre in the Himalayas and since then he had been living in London as an ordinary man concerned with modern problems – political, economic and social. He was not a religious leader but an educator who pointed to the way out of the present world crisis by teaching humanity “the art of self-realisation”, the first steps being “honesty of mind, sincerity of spirit and detachment.”
All the great religions offered the idea of a further revelation to be given by a future teacher. In the esoteric tradition, the word “Christ” was not the name of an individual but of an office or function within the “Hierarchy of Masters”. The present holder of that office, Maitreya, had, apparently been the “Christ” for the past 2,600 years. His priorities were: an adequate supply of the right food, adequate housing and shelter for all, healthcare, and education as a universal right.
Since late 1991 he had carried out a series of “appearances”. On June 11th 1988, he appeared miraculously at a prayer/healing meeting in Nairobi, Kenya where he was photographed addressing a large group of Christians who instantly recognised him as Jesus. Later, similar events were witnessed by large numbers of Hindus, Buddhists, Muslims, Jews and Christians all over the world.
Maitreya expected this approach to lead to the “day of declaration” when he would mentally “overshadow” everyone in the world at once, with the help of TV, when every person would hear his words inwardly, telepathically, in his or her own language.
The world’s media was becoming increasingly aware of the extraordinary changes in the world, and the “signs” which accompanied Maitreya’s presence were gradually receiving more attention in newspaper columns and on TV:-
“The past few years have been an age of miracles. Unimaginable events have succeeded one another as if the Creator had whistled up a new world. The Berlin wall tumbles. The Soviet Empire melts away. Nelson Mandela, free at last, brings democracy to black South Africans…Israelis and Palestinians can share the land both call home.” Time Magazine October 1993. It was not implied that Maitreya caused these events; he forecast them. There were several examples of his presence which had appeared in the press:
* Christ’s miracle appearance in Nairobi (Kenya Times, Kenya)
* Miracle waters cure AIDS and cancer (Washington Post, USA)
* Crosses of Light seen by thousands (Pasadena Star-News, USA)
* Madonna statues weep tears of blood (The Guardian, UK)
* The disappearing hitchhiker (Trouw, Netherlands)
These “miracles” were an accompanying occurrence of Maitreya’s emergence whereby he hoped gradually to attract attention to himself and then achieve what he came to do: to inaugurate a new era of peace to be characterized by its social justice. He pointed out that many struggled for freedom yet denied it to others, forgetting that freedom itself, like justice, was indivisible; and that many searched for solutions to their own needs, forgetting that only through interdependence could the needs of all be met.
Maitreya called complacency the root of evil in the world which led both individuals and institutions “to become estranged from the realities of life”, and prevented us from finding effective solutions to our problems.
Crop Circles and UFO sightings were apparently signs that we had come to the end of one era and were at the beginning of a new one. These signs were given to uphold people’s faith and hope in the future and in a spiritual basis to life, to keep them aware that we are in a world which is constantly changing, and that the days of miracles were not over. The miracles of the Bible, for example, and also of earlier times, were being repeated now daily, almost hourly, across the world. Aside from the few hoaxes, the crop circle patterns were real, but not directly connected with Maitreya. The crop circles were apparently patterns created by space vehicles. It was part of a process to energise Earth, to duplicate on the physical plane many of the vortices from the network of magnetic energy which surrounds the Earth. These formations would become “batteries of energy” for humanity in connection with a new energy source, part of the new science of light.
After reading all this, I wrote to Maitreya’s spokesperson, Mr Benjamin Creme, to ask a couple of questions:
“In the new world society in which everyone shares, will there still be a hierarchical system as there is in the esoteric tradition, if so, how will there not be the same difficulties connected with inequality? Who will decide how much food is enough and how much housing is sufficient? Who will make the decisions about everyone’s education?”
He referred me to the books he had written on the subject. (See bib.) Mother Meera had written a book as well. She was an avatar, currently living in Germany, not of Christ but of the Divine Mother. She had worked in the world in embodied forms before – the Virgin Mary and Isis being two examples. Some avatars performed miracles to attract people to God, but Mother Meera had not sought publicity – although people from all over the world came to her for healing and inspiration.
She gave her healing in silence – it was enough for people just to be near her, and she taught in silence because she said she was conveying something beyond words, beyond what was known – the silence of nature. Mother Meera encouraged all religions which spoke of love and peace. Her job was to create love and happiness, the essential thing, she said, was for people to be “open” so that they might receive her energy which came directly from the Divine. If they were open then it was not even necessary to be with her in person, the contact could happen from home for she was able to travel in time to different places to be with anyone.
To become open, one first had to be peaceful and relaxed and dispel all restlessness. Like a child one should be spontaneous,
clear and loving, able to accept everything with no mind-set. Open people had broad views and automatically helped others.
She agreed with Maitreya that the collective consciousness of mankind was currently being prepared for big changes and discoveries. She said there were many avatars in the world today, some preferring to be secret, and each one helping in a different way with the transition, with the task of raising man’s consciousness. In the end mankind was in control of its own fate, which may not have been conducive to survival, but God would not force; he wanted love to be given freely. He was the force containing good and bad.
This divine energy was like electricity, it was everywhere, in everyone and everything; the problem was to activate it, which was where we needed her help, and the help of other divine beings. We could see it only occasionally when it came to us in the form of love, grace, power or bliss. Without it there would be nothing.
Like Maitreya, she often spoke of the transformation of man’s consciousness. The more people who were open, the sooner change would come. As yet too few people were conscious of the energy. If we were to let in this energy we would feel a lightness of being, a happiness, and our daily work would seem easier and the results be better. We should let go of all thoughts, for a quiet mind let more in.
If we suffered pain, and she suffered like anyone else, it was only that we better understand joy. We had to be aware all the time – aware of unity, of the divine energy – and offer up all that happened in our daily lives, both good and bad. Mother Meera offered no new religion and no rules; each person, she said, created his or her own rules. If we did not feel inspiration in the presence of a holy person we should not be concerned for it would only mean that at this time in our lives, this particular holy person was not the right one for us and we would only be ready to receive the energy when the time was right for us personally: for each one of us the time would be different, and it would involve complete surrender.
Many words. Words were an unburdening, an outpouring. Writing, it seemed, was to do with self-healing. Words could never express perfectly. The perfect state was silence: feeling no need to talk or write or express; happy just to be. Everything else apart from silence was to redress the balance, heal the rift, mend the gap between what you wanted and what was. One of my intentions was to try and close the gap by finding the common element in religious, philosophical and scientific thinking, and the common purpose.
Although we could describe the world with words, the words were not the thing itself only a description approximating to the real thing. To really know anything, you had to know it immediately, intuitively, without thought. But thought was energy and could have a positive use. All matter, like words, was a means of communication and expression.
One of the first thoughts to prompt this book was this: that since every important event recedes into history and becomes less important with every passing day, it would seem that things were of maximum importance only at the time of their happening, in the present. But if everything mattered, what should be attended to first? And if things mattered to different degrees, how did one decide the importance of one thing over another? Was it only physical imperatives that had immediate meaning? Or were mind, body and soul linked inseparably? There were many general guidebooks on the subject – which one was right?
In music everything could be expressed without the hindrance of words – it was a place to seek refuge – more than that, a musician such as Mary gained confidence and a good sense of balance along the way. T.S. Eliot said that in order to be good at living you had to be good at balancing and knowing when you had fallen, so that you could become good at starting again and again and again. Mary said the less one questioned, the less one was disturbed. I thought it was her lack of awareness that allowed her to be so balanced. She did not think about the great imponderables in life, she preferred to do crossword puzzles. I said I’d do a puzzle once I’d solved all life’s mysteries. If having faith meant to not worry about the outcome of your actions then she already had it, but if I tried to be like her I wound up doubting myself. I wondered long and hard about the foundation of Mary’s strength because she could not account for it herself. To focus on one thing too exclusively could sometimes reduce a person’s peripheral sight.
All the moving about in the world revealed a general restlessness, a dissatisfaction with what is. Everyone seemed to seek distraction and stimulus. The Buddhists said we should learn to become centred and still, quieten down. But we couldn’t. Hyperactivity was now normal. We rushed around in search of something that could provide us with lasting inner tranquility. It was a western paradox that we looked outside of ourselves for something to satisfy the inner need.
Eastern philosophy said that I was supposed to have no intentions and no expectations; it warned that those who knew did not speak and those who spoke did not know. It urged me to forget myself – for if my heart clung even briefly to anything, my true nature would be imprisoned and turned into something fixed making a fixed ego which would meet another one outside ready to resist it. So I tried not to force things and to go with the flow – finding, however, that the flow was often elusive: how did one go with the flow as well as deal with all life’s distractions, especially as a school-teacher? In school the flow was whitewater. And when you raised a family, how did you go with the flow and behave like a parent at the same time, setting an example? It was all too difficult; proving perhaps that it was harder to take the path of least resistance than supposed. Was the trick to play a role while not being aware of it at all – like Mary? To relinquish the ego would therefore help one go with the flow.
With this restlessness, with people not knowing what to try next in their search for fulfilment because there was so much – religion, magic, outer space, inner space, cyber space, virtual reality – some thought we were on the verge of a great discovery to be precipitated by a quantum shift, where the problem would become the solution.
I continued to try hard to appreciate my lot because what I apparently had was a near-perfect existence – or so my friend, O’Lafferty had observed. I tried not to need approval and I tried not to have hope; and I tried to like myself. I could see that every age in one’s life brought a fresh set of problems.
Everything appeared to come in relative degrees. At this point I could see no solutions or absolutes; just relativity, polarity, opposites and compensations. Every element of life, as I saw it then, swung back and forth, off and on, came and went; but if the degree of depression was equal to the degree of one’s potential for happiness, I thought it might all balance out in the end. In addition I had decided that the purpose of life could be reduced down to one phrase: “bodily functions”; and that we were each responsible for all our pains and pleasures because we each chose to act according to how we felt.
So there I sat like a fat toad at the start of middle-age, fair game for anyone, weakly hoping to receive the grace to believe what I believed before, and that it might translate itself into lasting religious certainty.
It soon became clear why Father Henry had been so guarded. A few days after our visit, a local clergyman was fired by the Bishop for stating that he did not believe in God, although he strongly maintained that it did not affect his performance as a priest. It was reported that:
“At least 100 Church of England priests do not believe in an external, supernatural God”. This emerged at a conference for the new “Christian atheists”. Even some Catholic priests have joined Sea of Faith, the group that sees religion as a human creation with God nothing more than the sum of our values and ideals…
“We are part of a revolution now, but in the 21st century the church will be without a God in the traditional sense. It might want to use some reference to God and Jesus, but human spirituality will be the emphasis.” That is, aligning one’s will and one’s actions with one’s highest values, such as love, justice, joy and peace.
“…one vicar believes that Jesus was special in the same way as Shakespeare and Bach. Someone else said the Virgin-Birth was “a myth”: humans have developed God. When I talk about God, I’m talking about something inside. Prayer for me is meditation.”
“It articulates what tens of thousands of people feel about God. We are talking about people who worry about the right to call themselves Christian. I would go to the stake for the realness of God for me, even though I don’t happen to think God is an objective being.”
“I think God can be manifest in many ways, a Buddhist can have a very strong sense of God.”
I could not be certain about where to place my faith, for faith did not spring from the mind. There were as many opinions as there were people in the world and in this sense all things were of equal value, so I had to wait for a gut reaction which overrode the intellectual. I felt that God and the creative process were one, that everyone and everything was an expression of God, which suggested that everything was as it should be, that there were no mistakes, because everything was part of a system of balances: conflict at one level was health at another; not to make a mistake included the feeling that a mistake could be made; and there had to be at least an illusion of evil for there to be good. It seemed to be accepted that there was a level of mind beyond our limited computer-type, cognitive brains which was perhaps the origin of the imagination, creativity and inspiration; the Daimon of Socrates, the Theos of Plotin, the planetary genius of Paracelsus, the transcendental ego of Novalis, the subliminal self of Myers, the unknown guest of Maeterlinck.
I had always been more interested in the unknown than the known. I tended to write before I knew where it would lead, because something was created in the gap between where I started and where I wound up. It gave some part of my unconscious a chance to have a say. As a teacher I was supposed to teach my students to plan their compositions before they started writing, but the ones who wrote before they knew where they were going always produced the most interesting stories which only needed a little shape and discipline after the event – like religious faith – the believing before the knowing.
I became very interested in the writings and talks of Alan Watts in 1985/6 before meeting Mary who lived in Berkeley, CA. When I eventually re-visited Berkeley after teaching there in 1984, this time to visit Mary, I discovered that Watts had lived on his houseboat, Vallejo just across the San Francisco Bay in Sausalito. Mary and I met in England in August of 1987 at the time of the Harmonic Convergence.