The Psychospiritual Chiron

Saturn and Pluto are the 2 indicators for the pandemic which the energy of the collective has created. The previous time we all experienced what these 2 indicators, Saturn and Pluto, were indicating was in 1981/2. As they moved closer together in October of ‘82 they sat on Esther’s Ascendant preparing to oppose her chart ruler, Venus which is in Aries on the Descendant. It was also making a square to where it is now which is conjunct her moon. There were also a few epidemics at this time: Ebola, ARD associated with influenza and AIDS. The indicator was seen against the sign of Libra, ruled by Venus which has a reputation for relationships.

Interestingly this was the time in Esther’s life when she was settling into her marriage with Jerry. They had taken off to LA to marry on 3-September-‘80. Chiron was opposing natal Chiron from her 7th house of relationships, Venus was opposing her moon, the sun was opposite her sun and Uranus was conjunct natal Chiron in Scorpio in the 1st house bringing something unusual and sudden into focus in an area which was discussed a little in the previous post. This is a deeper part of her personality which holds a degree of scarring. I cannot talk in depth about this as I do not know anything about it but there is empirical data which all Chirons in Scorpio and in the 1st house have in common.

It is very likely that Abraham forms a part of her personality because we see it demonstrated so often, so I am using this Chiron as a marker for the Abraham part of Esther. The ascendant and the 1st house are the most visible parts of the chart – along with the mid-heaven. It makes sense that it shows up in the marriage chart as Jerry was so integral to the birth of Abraham.

However, it is interesting that the arrival of the ‘plague’ and epidemic indicators would occur so soon into the marriage. Exactly 2 years into the marriage the conjunction began in 1982 and as it moved off Saturn moved in to conjunct Chiron in 1984 staying there for a year till the time in 1985 that Esther produced Abraham. So we hear the distant drums signifying the approach for the 2 early years and then coming to a climax at the emphasis of the place in the chart that suggests a process of wounding/healing. It seems significant that Abraham appears in answer to a need for healing in Esther. (My and my partner’s Guidance appeared also when we needed healing.)

I do not believe that our own guidance is always represented by Chiron, but remember that Esther is a happy person who believes in living happily ever after, so the dynamic of a woundedness in her being has a certain emphasis as seen against her other character dynamics.

We cannot really know without asking whether the wound was healed once and for all at the advent of Abraham, but from experience I would assume that like us all the wound appears from time to time offering itself up for more attention which is interesting in itself: that Abraham for Esther is not always easy. Also, the extent to which Jerry was involved, since Chiron was emphasised on the wedding day, is up for speculation. If Esther was dragged into this role kicking and screaming back then, she certainly seems to have warmed to it now. And that is very much the nature of Chiron in a chart: to try and seal the gap between wound and healing.

I was drawn into this line of research because of the indicators returning to both my chart/life and Esther’s chart/life for the first time since 1982 – although back then I felt the impact as early as the autumn of 1979 – my natal placements are a couple of degrees lower/earlier than Esther’s and I have the nasty double T-square on the vertical axis. Esther has a square between moon and Venus which is the common factor between then and now, as well as Chiron, which had first Uranus awakening it and then Saturn 4-5 years later pressurising it. Also, it is important to remember that Esther was born under the conjunction of Saturn, Pluto. There is a powerful intensity at work in this chart and we only get to witness it as an audience when Esther turns into Abraham. Perhaps it explains the urgency that Esther felt which caused her to carry on with the seminars under lock-down conditions lest her own dominant intensity called for expression in another substitute way.

As I listen a little to these on screen monologues I notice that Esther answers every question by referring to the law of attraction. It is her own personal belief system. She has built her Abraham personality, which is in the first house, on this belief. Once a person has a strong set of principles in place it does become easier to translate all life’s questions by reference to them. Witness the many preachers in the world and over the centuries who refer ultimately to their Bible. Esther has her own Bible and she goes at it with passion and vigour using her habits of repetition and rampage. Gemini on the cusp of her house of beliefs speaks to the need to preach or teach being as important as the LoA.

But she apparently cannot do this as sweet Libra-rising Esther, it has to be the heavier, more intense, darker by comparison Scorpio part of her persona whose energy refers us to her Uranus in the 8th house (Pluto is the natural ruler the 8th) and, of course, both Pluto and Mars which are part of the stellium, or large conjunction, in Leo in her 10th house. The 10th house gives us the resonance of Saturn which is also part of the conjunction in Leo. It is surprising that we do not see Abraham’s dominance in Esther as it is a strong part of her visible personality. It may be that the part of the act which is less authentic is in fact the Esther personality which might refer us back to Chiron in Scorpio in the 1st suggesting that this is the nature of the ‘Chironic’ wound – that she could never allow herself to display anything similar to what has come to be known as Abraham. It might be that the act is compensation for, or an allowing of, her completeness. And this would also explain the regularity and reliability of her annual schedule. It would also help to place meaning on Jupiter in Sagittarius in the 2nd where we see that she feels exceptionally entitled to all she earns – with no hint of displaying a need to give any part of her fortune away to good causes or less fortunate peoples.

The zeitgeist has produced the current tension in the collective which has finally produced the plague, Covid19. The facing off between the two opposing forces of all the people who want change for a New Age sort of goodness, and those who want change for something more tried and tested, and those who do not want anything to change at all except their love-life and their bank balance.

Esther/Abraham do a fine job of entertaining and preaching a homespun philosophy, but they are not trying to raise the global consciousness in any other way than urging people to find joy in anything that makes them happy. This is a repeat of an Epicureanism which is a system of philosophy based on the teachings of Epicurus, founded around 307 B.C. It teaches that the greatest good is to seek (modest) pleasures in order to attain a state of tranquillity, freedom from fear (“ataraxia”) and absence from bodily pain (“aponia”). Except Esther’s interpretation is to want more, more and more!

Then in the early nineteenth century, happiness was seen as a value which is derived from maximum pleasure. Utilitarians, such as the English philosopher Jeremy Bentham, suggested the following: “maximum surplus of pleasure over pain is the cardinal goal of human striving. Happiness depends on ourselves.”

More than anybody else, Aristotle enshrined happiness as a central purpose of human life and a goal in itself. As a result he devotes more space to the topic of happiness than any thinker prior to the modern era. He thought that happiness depends on the cultivation of virtue, though his virtues are somewhat more individualistic than the essentially social virtues of the Confucians.

The work of positive psychologists like Martin Seligman appears to show that the happiest people are those that have discovered their unique strengths (such as persistence and critical thinking) and virtues (such as humanity or justice) and use those strengths and virtues for a purpose that is greater than their own personal goals.

Esther/Abraham’s law of attraction lacks any reference to morality. In the New Thought philosophy, the Law of Attraction is the belief that positive or negative thoughts bring positive or negative experiences into a person’s life.[1][2] The belief is based on the ideas that people and their thoughts are made from “pure energy”, and that a process of like energy attracting like energy exists through which a person can improve their health, wealth, and personal relationships. There is zero empirical scientific evidence supporting the law of attraction, and it is widely considered a pseudoscience. The New Thought movement grew out of the teachings of Phineas Quimby in the early 19th century.

The debate over theories of happiness falls along a couple of lines. The most interesting questions concern the choice between life satisfaction and affect-based views like hedonism and the emotional state theory.

The philosophy of happiness is the philosophical concern with the existencenature, and attainment of happiness. Some philosophers believe happiness can be understood as the moral goal of life or as an aspect of chance; indeed, in most European languages the term happiness is synonymous with luck.[1] Thus, philosophers usually explicate on happiness as either a state of mind, or a life that goes well for the person leading it.[2] Given the pragmatic concern for the attainment of happiness, research in psychology has guided many modern day philosophers in developing their theories.[3]

Many years ago I studied all of these philosophies and I looked at psychology as well. My intention was to turn my life around from the mess that it had become by my forties. I finally found my way to natal astrology as it contained everything, literally. And it was self-referencing at the same time. It was just simple enough to allow me entrance into what is an infinite and beautifully complex set of principles and archetypes. From a careful delineation of the parts of the subject the student eventually moves on to the level involving a synthesis of the parts which are all contained in the image of the birth chart, a map of the sky for the time and place of birth. The birth of you, me or any event.  Anything which begins has a birth chart.

My own Chiron tests me on a daily basis as it lives in the house of daily life, the 6th house, but I have not always been as conscious of it as I am now. It is also responsible for problems with body, and healing of the body. When there is difficulty in the life there is then the opportunity for Chiron to awaken. And it also works the other way round, apparently pointing to the wellness of life before the problem.

Wounded healer is a term created by psychologist Carl Jung. The idea states that an analyst is compelled to treat patients because the analyst himself is “wounded.” The idea may have Greek mythology origins. Research has shown that 73.9% of counsellors and psychotherapists have experienced one or more wounding experiences leading to their career choice.[1]

As an example, of the “wounded healer phenomenon” between an analyst and his/her analyzed:

  • The analyst is consciously aware of his own personal wounds. These wounds may be activated in certain situations especially if the analysed wounds are similar to his own.[2]
  • The analysed wounds affect the wounds of the analyst. The analyst either consciously or unconsciously passes this awareness back to his analysed, causing an unconscious relationship to take place between analyst and analysed.[3]

The psychospiritual significance of the Chiron myth continues to evolve, particularly in the aftermath of the planetoid’s discovery, and it has been written about extensively. Generally described as “The Wounded Healer”, Chiron is an archetypal principle with which many counsellors and therapists have come to identify and apply in work with clients.

In astrology, natal Chiron may be construed as an indicator of the “Chironic wound” or “psychic wound”, representing unresolved psycho-emotional injuries arising from childhood traumata or subsequent experience – injuries which, sometimes consciously accessible but often repressed or otherwise dissociated from, still cry out for redress and healing. Chiron has been associated with marriage, romance, death, rebirth, reincarnation, and more. Some writers equate the Chironic process with the shamanic experience of being stripped to skeleton and rebuilt, of being eaten whole and vomited up with new awareness.  Others interpret the psychic wound as a “hidden gift” which acts as a drive to self-discovery. Most read Chiron in terms of egoic conflict and the surrender of delusional omnipotence, leading to transpersonal awareness, transcendence, and psychospiritual growth.

Everyone on the planet is making a contribution to the collective vibration as reflected in Saturn/Pluto. Esther is in the middle, as am I, of something significantly life-changing and the outcome will likely not be known for another couple of years. Last time for both of us it lead to some quite amazing life events – remember 1987 and the HARMONIC CONVERGENCE of AUGUST 17?

At that time Mercury, Venus, the sun and Mars were all conjunct Esther’s planets including Pluto and Saturn in Leo in the 10th and while the opposition of Uranus and Chiron was still in play it had moved on from attention to Chiron in her chart to attention to Jupiter in her 2nd house of possessions and self-worth. Perhaps this was the time, galvanized by the power of belief, that she and Jerry took Abraham on the road after the initial smaller sessions at home. Abraham became a commodity.

It was at this time, also on the road, that I met the person who our Guidance later called my ‘twin flame’. My life was to be a journey into esoteric understanding, as was Esther’s. However since both Guidance and partner disappeared to a large extent from 2009 onwards – with an exception in 2014/15 – I have spent too much time in a very grey and slowly transitional place which has another year left to complete. I can only hope for the type of good beginning that generally accompanies this sort of re-birthing after the dark night of the soul. And I hope this for everyone.

The way to access my Guidance has been through regular hours in Nature and listening for ideas as a clue to what the energy of Guidance feels like. I am not able to do the standard form of meditation because it doesn’t suit me. This is different for everybody. It is important to follow our joy. It can sometimes be dispiriting to let someone buoyant and shiny like Esther stand as a role model. We must be personal about this rather than look to a master or guru. The new Age of Aquarius is not about masters and gurus, as it has been for about 2000 years, but about finding in ourselves the inner master and inner guru.

To understand more about spiritual types like Abraham, we need to understand more about Esther. The most accessible way is via her birth chart, although her time of birth is not known – as far as I know. There is a method of working with an unknown birth time which I have used here, but I always keep an open mind about variations on conclusions drawn from this type of map. At the same time we pay the most comprehensive attention possible to the biography drawn from her own word of mouth (hundreds of seminars from the late 1980s) and online.

For now, in Esther and her chart pay most attention to the emotional nature, the moon, which is prime in undergoing change at present; and Venus, the chart ruler, in charge of relationships; also the sun in Pisces; and most interestingly, Chiron as it is also in reception of the energy of change and transformation from Pluto – which rules (resonates with) Scorpio, the sign it occupies. For someone who is shape-shifting before our very eyes the whole thing feels very much the same as all that has gone before including the questions. I suspect the interesting part is all that we do not hear and witness. Like us all, Esther has created her role from her desires, but it was apparently her mother who told her that to speak the word of God never ends well.

We hope it will end happily ever after….  or does anything ever end?


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